gloom and doom

I'm having one of those pathetic days, where I feel gloom and depressed and completely alone. It's not like things have been difficult right now... Work wise, things are going well, easy schedule (well, I start jeopardy call in the morning, so things at least have the potential of becoming more hairy), and I'm enjoying working with my colleagues. Even the resident that I've despised is more tolerable now and we've actually had one or two pleasant conversations. (It's all a facade, but whatever).

But then I come home, and while I enjoy living alone, right now, I feel lonely. One of the good friends that I've made here moved to Utah this week for her residency, and because of an alarm clock fluke, I didn't get to say a proper goodbye. Two of my co-interns in Neurology are leaving, one because he got married to a girl who refused to move, the other because of health concerns, and they're my buddies. I just found out about one of them this week and since he's ignoring my phone calls/emails, well... You all know how much I despise change, and to be confronted with all of this at the same time, I guess it's no surprise that all I've wanted to do is crawl into bed and stay there.

We won't even mention the loathing/disgust/longing mix that's associated with the few potential boys in my life. I'm too bitter right now.

I have 3 posts about my sister's wedding started, that I've never finished. Maybe tomorrow...