the cruel tease
Jul. 11th, 2004 01:26 amGot a big white envelope in the mail this afternoon, from the National Board of Medical Examiners.
My heart seriously dropped to the bottom of my toes. I wasn't expecting my results for at least another week. Tore the envelope open, with help from my sister (my fingers were shaking so badly) and....
I've been selected to participate in a survey of those who took the Boards.
Bastards. The least that they could do is put some kind of warning on the envelope that it did NOT contain Board results. Right now, I honestly think I don't want to know.
It's just been one of those days. Matt came by today, to drop off some books I lent him... I haven't seen him for a couple of months now, and thought that he was purged from the system. Nope. Got that whole twittery, gut on the floor (hey, that's twice today. Must be a record) at his voice and he's looking good. Too good. And when he said that he had missed seeing me.... Guh. It's so hard to remind myself that this crush of two years hasn't progressed at all and isn't going to. He's either not interested (most likely) or just pathologically shy and it's not going to change. Period.
And of course, my face chose today to break out and I was wearing my greasy glasses to give my poor eyes a break. I'm sure I looked fabulous.
Saw Spiderman with Chris and Melissa. They didn't like it so much... I did. Well, except for the scene where the doctors and nurses were all killed--that was a little too graphic. I remember with the first one, the first time I saw it, I didn't like it so much because of the clichéd writing, but got over it after reading that that was the point--to make it sound like it came from the comic books. That was their complaint today. Ah, well, next time I'll see it with a more sympathetic crowd.
Rotations are going great. I've seen a couple of births and a c-sections and followed several patients in "my care." Next week, I'm hoping to actually "catch the baby" and deliver it (with help of course). Birth is amazing, and I really like being around patients like this--mostly healthy, young women about my age and then being able to participate in this special time of their lives. Who knows, maybe I'll end up going into OB, it's definitely on the list to consider now. I have call on Monday night and then all of Saturday. I hope I can handle it! Me being up for more than 24 hours seems like a bad idea.
My heart seriously dropped to the bottom of my toes. I wasn't expecting my results for at least another week. Tore the envelope open, with help from my sister (my fingers were shaking so badly) and....
I've been selected to participate in a survey of those who took the Boards.
Bastards. The least that they could do is put some kind of warning on the envelope that it did NOT contain Board results. Right now, I honestly think I don't want to know.
It's just been one of those days. Matt came by today, to drop off some books I lent him... I haven't seen him for a couple of months now, and thought that he was purged from the system. Nope. Got that whole twittery, gut on the floor (hey, that's twice today. Must be a record) at his voice and he's looking good. Too good. And when he said that he had missed seeing me.... Guh. It's so hard to remind myself that this crush of two years hasn't progressed at all and isn't going to. He's either not interested (most likely) or just pathologically shy and it's not going to change. Period.
And of course, my face chose today to break out and I was wearing my greasy glasses to give my poor eyes a break. I'm sure I looked fabulous.
Saw Spiderman with Chris and Melissa. They didn't like it so much... I did. Well, except for the scene where the doctors and nurses were all killed--that was a little too graphic. I remember with the first one, the first time I saw it, I didn't like it so much because of the clichéd writing, but got over it after reading that that was the point--to make it sound like it came from the comic books. That was their complaint today. Ah, well, next time I'll see it with a more sympathetic crowd.
Rotations are going great. I've seen a couple of births and a c-sections and followed several patients in "my care." Next week, I'm hoping to actually "catch the baby" and deliver it (with help of course). Birth is amazing, and I really like being around patients like this--mostly healthy, young women about my age and then being able to participate in this special time of their lives. Who knows, maybe I'll end up going into OB, it's definitely on the list to consider now. I have call on Monday night and then all of Saturday. I hope I can handle it! Me being up for more than 24 hours seems like a bad idea.