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Six month ago, February 1st started on a Sunday, creating a perfect month. At that time I was going to blog every day that month. I did manage to do it for 14 days before I gave up. I make no promises this time. I still delight over perfect months.

Doing: I’ve had the week off service and I have been utterly lazy. Bad Julia.

Thinking: I made an appointment to see a therapist tomorrow. I mentioned before that I’ve been having some difficulty dealing with things. I’ve been fighting a pretty severe case of “Impostor Syndrome”, some “Single and Unwanted” and “Religious Floundering,” and wow, I have problems with intimacy and vulnerability. I’ve referred people dozens of times to therapists but I’ve never gone to therapy myself. In high school, I was petrified that my parents were divorcing and met with the traveling counselor once, who basically patted my head and told me that I worried too much. It really takes a lot for me to open up: I’m so much more of an active listener. So this is petrifying for me.

Reading: I’m taking a class this semester on leadership. So I’ve had lots of reading for it. Some interesting. Some boring. It’s been a good class – we’re starting to work on some group projects and there are so many good ideas and I’m making connections.

Watching: Glee’s final season started and it’s been brilliant. Utterly brilliant. Witty and biting, emotional, and just tight writing. It’s been everything that I love about glee. I’ve always loved glee, from the very first time I watched the pilot and I am truly heartsick that it’s ending. And it’s also disappointing that it’s had such poor ratings this year. I hate that it’s ending, but I hate more that it’s ending and nobody will remember what a brilliant show it was.

I’m also watching Orphan Black, which is also brilliant. I’m in the middle of season 2; I’m dragging out the episodes because I don’t want to it to end; it’s still way too long of a wait until season 3.

Making: Nothing, unless you all want to hear about my failed attempt to repair the LCD screen on my camera.

Writing: I attempted to work on my book chapter this past week. See above’s failure. I have this week off service as well, so I’m hoping to make more progress.

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Date: 2015-02-02 01:57 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] claidheamhmor
Good luck with the therapist; with luck it'll be useful and illuminating! A good one can be really nice to talk to.

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Date: 2015-02-02 03:52 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ellettra.livejournal.com
I found therapy to be very helpful! I hope you'll get something out of it that will be useful. You probably know this, but you might have to try on a couple of therapists before you find one that really clicks with you, and you'll know pretty quickly if the person across from you is right for you!

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Date: 2015-02-04 05:32 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bjorks-defender.livejournal.com
I hope your therapy session went well today. I agree with ellettra that it can take a couple of tries before you find the right therapist for you, so don't feel discouraged if the session didn't feel right. Just try someone else. (hugs)
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